But hey, who doesn’t? My whole life is currently one giant uncertainty, and has been for the past 5 months and counting. It’s taking a toll. Perhaps the reason why I didn’t want to leave home earlier in September is because home is the only thing secure in my life right now. Despite job chances being epically low in Calgs, at least I definitely had a place to live, with all the comforts of home and family. Here, everything is uncertain.
The place I live now is great, but I’m unsure of when the person I’m subletting from will return to Guelph and claim the room back. She says at least by the winter semester, but possibly sooner. She herself doesn’t even know. I haven’t even fully unpacked because of this. Just clothes and toiletries are out. So that leaves me looking for housing. Still haven’t found a job, but at least I’m waiting to hear back from an interview, which I was supposed to hear back from yesterday, but found out the decision is delayed until next Monday… and if I don’t get that job… then it’s back to the drawing board. Even my volunteering stuff is uncertain. I’m called in randomly with no set schedule for both gigs. Even the snack program I’m helping an RD start at her kid’s school is uncertain as to it’s feasibility, since we found out that the entire school and all it’s programs can only fundraise three times a YEAR, which is likely to screw us over.
Not to mention I feel completely out of place here since everyone I know in Guelph is a student except for me. I have to keep reminding myself why I’m even here. Career. Or should that be “career”. Chances of getting a nutrition-related job that doesn’t require being an RD are better here than Calgs, unfortunately. More connections, awesome volunteering gigs… none of which keep me busy enough to forget the constant uncertainties hanging over my head.
I’ve realized one thing about being graduated and not looking into more school. Life is tough. And it’s telling me to suck it up. God I miss the shelter and certainty of schooling. And I wish there were a handbook on life. Can someone write one? Please and many thanks.